like a boss

I keep finding myself aching to write, but thus far I have not been able to adequately represent my thoughts. I suppose this will be my feeble attempt..we'll see how I feel by its commencement..

Speaking of commencement, graduation is less than a month away, and I have only six days left of school. It's simply unbelievable. I'm somehow surprised I've made it this far. Sometimes I think back on moments from these past four years and can't believe it all happened in this lifetime. Makes me wonder how different things will be four years from now. What will remain the same?

I feel content.

This weekend has been stellar, as have most days throughout the gently rolling month of May. One school day slips into the next, studded with the interregnum of weekends like these, which are filled with laughs, relaxation, and his bright smile. All is well.

best,
Sus

update

I realized I miss blogging, even though few people read it. Perhaps especially because few people read it...
I find myself bogged down with negativity tonight, nearly on the verge of tears to be honest, so i decided it's time for some positivity. Gotta practice what you preach, so here goes:

Things to be thankful for:
-The friends who've stuck by me, who buy me mango Jarritos and flan, who spend lunch with me even when they don't need something from me, who love to see me smile and revel in my happiness with me
-The one who's made everything a bit easier, who's made every day a bit more filled with smiles, with happiness, with genuine joy, who has truly changed things for me
-Thomas Pynchon's latest novel, due out in August 2009
-Feeling confident about my AP exam performance
-CHHS dance concert
-Having the ability to focus on all that is good in my life
-My amazing, loving, supportive family!!!
-Being tucked in at night and having his bright smile being the last sight before sleep overtook my body
-The new friends I've met / the Q bldg /Monday night throwdowns
-Prom 2009!
-Graduating (we hope. xD)
-The view from my bedroom
-Having had the experiences I have.
-The bounty gained from Mum's trip to IKEA....mmm, Skarpor...!

This helped.
Love and light,
S-

pu$$y m0ney w33d

Oh, how I miss blogging.
I wish my bumpin' social life left more time for it..! :rolls eyes: It would be better if it left more time for LIT. HOMEWORK, to be honest..

Chalk it up to the perfect weather, this mug of warm tea, or whatever you will, but there's been a smile plastered on this face for quite a while now...I'm really starting to like it.

Life spent piling 8 people into the Lincoln, blasting music, smoking a Parliament Light through a sly grin is pretty ideal. Lounging on the grass outside Weaver Street, flirting with - hell, everyone - and stealing Mel's pretzels...Lying around practicing "DrewZen," enjoying dinner at the coolest Ukrainian household in the world, jogging for the hell of it, dreaming of /her/, stroking /her/ hair, teasing /him/ about his, picnicking with junkfood and 40oz's, holding hands, strolling through nature, falling in love..

It's working. It sure as hell works for this girl.

Love and light,
S-

Dime que es mentira todo, Un sueño tonto y no mas...

Tell me it's all a lie
A silly dream and nothing more


Hello there.
I'm lying in bed, half-watching some Family Guy re-run and listening to sweet songs in Spanish...
Today was a bit rocky, and I am feeling very sick on top of it all. I can't stop coughing and sniffling, and my sinuses and head ache. Aaaatractive.
Unfortunately, I realize now I don't have anything of any importance to say. Just wanted to complain for a hot minute.

<3
S-

Well, well.

It's time for a more proper update of sorts.
I wonder -- though it changes little my actions -- if anyone other than myself reads this.
No matter.

I've been introduced to some great new music lately. It's just what I need, because even set to shuffle, my iPod plays nothing but songs drenched in old memories. Long gone memories, hackneyed memories, ones I've pushed to the back of my mind in order to avoid.
It's been getting easier, really. It's not often I let my mind wander back to those days of old, and less and less often do I yearn for them. I feel relieved and free. Most of the time...
Now I have many new songs glazed liberally with sugary new memories. I've taken to a few meaningful, well-done tracks in addition to my usual helping of silly rap phenomenons. Lil Ru's "Nasty Song" and Soulja Boy's "Kiss Me Through the Phone" are quite the guilty pleasure, though.

I learned today how one's leg would get stanky, thus enabling one to perform the stanky legg. Lolz were had indeed.

This weekend was quite wonderful, though admittedly tiring. Friday afternoon I took D. and A. to Morrisville with me for the NC Fashion Week audition. They both did quite well and made me proud. I have my hopes up that we will all do the show together. The audition ran late, but I still rushed home, changed into higher heels and a matching top, and drove downtown. I moseyed into the club and was met with warm air, warm bodies, warm clove cigarettes and a warm, warm hug.
Friday night was severely quality. 'Nuff said? ;]
I remember precisely how I was woken up on Saturday 'morning' (we weren't about to get out of bed before noon, haha). It was a simply wonderful way to wake up.
The better part of the day was spent lying quietly in bed, good company, good music, hot sunshine streaming in. One hand on the keyboard, one hand on his; resting, smiling, dozing, giggling. Relaxing.

It's late yet.
I've forgotten how much I do love William Fitzsimmons. Memories be damned..!
I have a warm mug of tea waiting for me and perhaps a marzipan sweet if I'm lucky.
Only time will tell.

With love and light,
S-

silliness

I can't wait to see him again.
In the meantime, quotable quotes:

"no like the smoke blends in with your natural very pleasant aroma and it smells like hotboxing a spring valley"

"for about a week he was completely serious about building a catapult to throw squirrels he trapped, but he noticed he had not trapped any.... so he spent sleepless nights on squirrel trapping websites and looking up youtube videos about it while sharpening a knife, it was kind of terrifying really"

"man, someone needs some emergency vodka!"


best,
S-

valentine's day, v. 2.0

was simply divine.
oh, simple joys.
thank you.
i can't stop thinking about that night. selves shared, eyes locked, beautiful.
i won't ruin it with my clumsy words...

best,
S-

P.S. ~ Fashion Week blog in the works.