ess ay ee arr. <3

Have you even suddenly been filled with doubt?
Opened your eyes and given you head a prompt little shake to clear you mind, only to stop midway and think, "What the hell is going on in my life?"

I am so unbelievably angry right now. I don't know what to do or say or think or feel.
I hate being this upset.
I hate it so much. I feel so hurt and alone and really it's because I'm never satisfied and I push people away so they can't get close enough to hurt me. I'm tired of everything. And fuck it, I am so tried of crying.
It's ruining my complexion.

Me? Do you want to know me? Well, I'm Susannah. I'm a "backstabbing, motherfucking, ass-raping, happiness-sucking, plain, old bitch." You'd get "more out of talking to a comatose patient" than talking to me. All I spew is "bullshit." Why do I even bother talking?

-S