Private

The following is very personal and was written for cathartic purposes.


There is one thing that reminds me I am not as selfish as they claim. One fatal flaw that keeps me here: my desire to please. I can't bring myself to do what I want to do so badly because of my love for those around me. As much as I want to believe everyone would be better off without me, I know they wouldn't see it that way. I find myself wishing with all my heart that I had never met those who I have come to love and those who love me. Without them, it would be so easy. So simple...I want to do it so badly. Each day my desire becomes stronger, and I feel myself losing my weak grip on the sanity I have left. I have simply no idea why those who do put up with me still do so.

Love and light,
S-